I am feeling very over-whelmed and unorganized. I am not exactly sure what is going on, but I seem to not be able to get organized enough to decide what essay to write next or what book I need to start reading. 

I was searching for some kind of divine intervention yesterday, as I actually began to fear I would become stagnant and not even complete the DP. 

I have decided to take a step back. 

When looking at this situation yesterday I was on the ADF site and could not even get my thoughts together on there. I decided to just close it up and spend some time at my altar today contemplating where I need to go with this whole thing. As I was closing things on my computer I accidentally opened a new window. It was the PDF for Danglers DP WOTY. Divine intervention or accident…who knows. 

I have a decision to make today. In my heart I feel his guide is what I need to finish this program, even if it means I will not finish it on the deadline I set for myself. On one hand I will not actually be too far behind, as I have a lot of the essays already written, I just need to review them in the order he has his program set up. Or I can just try to get myself better organized and make myself do it on my own. 

Regardless, I will make the decision today. I cannot stand the feeling of being stagant in life or any aspect of it. 

My first meeting as a Protogrove will be in 2 weeks. No matter what my decision is today, I will not give up and will do my very best to grow personally and as a Protogrove and do ADF and Druidry proud.

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